Claudia:

im applying to a RA position to study hippos in kenya (i know).

One of the most important notes I’ve ever received

…came from a high school acquaintance after Lawrence died. Her message of love and support came through her words so effectively… it was a non-insignificant buoy for me at that time. (My friend’s mom passed away earlier this week, and I looked to this note to see how I could express support as strongly as Sara Rose did for me.)

dearest daphne,

i wanted to write you to let you know i’m so sorry to hear about lawrence.

when i walked past you friday on telegraph i saw the pain on your face. but i sort of froze and continued walking down the street in automaton phone conversation fashion. i wish i had thought fast enough to say this in person, and to acknowledge something that deserves acknowledgment.

i just wanted to say that i’m thinking of you, and of lawrence. and that i’m somewhat aware of how profound an effect events like these have, and how truly ground-shaking and difficult they can be. i wish for you all the love, support, and space you need during this time.

please know that if you’d ever like someone to talk to who’s a little bit more removed from it all, i’m happy to be here in any way i can.

loss is a long, long process, (and there’s no one way to go about dealing with it) but i’ve found it’s also a tremendous opportunity for growth—- even if it comes at unthinkable or undesirable costs.

all the best, and a big hug,
sara rose

heliophilic:

today’s omelet brought to you by eight egg yolks, two egg whites, and a dash of teflon. FRIENDS DON’T LET FRIENDS EAT THEIR LEFTOVER EGG YOLKS WHEN THEY MAKE MERINGUE.

I need this boy for reality checks.

B:	hahaha stupid first world problem

"it’s more of treating us like ‘o i h ave some extra time, i guess i can hang out with you guys since my roommates are busy’"

my friend, on why he feels…actually, I’m not sure what he feels. Jealousy, resignation, inferiority? I know what I feel: sad that because of my actions my friends feel like they are backup friends, shocked that I didn’t see this dynamic developing, a niggling suspicion that I DID see this dynamic developing, resignation that good intentions do not engender positive results.  I’m not sure how to approach this situation with them. 

Mingling tips from SJ

me:	MT invited me to his company party, which is right now...i don't know how to mingle
S:	then wallflower :)
me:	but...aren't i expected to mingle?
S:	maybe you could say hi to people and ask them what they do and things like that to be polite
S:	are you worried?
me:	i'm getting sweaty just thinking about it...that is the truth
S:	oh d...then hang with M and ask him to introduce you to nice people or find the other people that don't know other people
S:	for me, if i feel awkward, i try to err on the side of wallflowering
S:	until i get drunk
S:	then shit gets awkwarder
S:	so. don't do that
S:	if the most you do is eat some cheese and crackers, meet one or two people, make some awkward small talk, and then people watch, that's enough, i think. if you grab a sandwich and stand in the corner staring at everyone, you look creepy
S:	shy comes across as aloof if you do it wrong
S:	:)
S:	don't feel any pressure to be anything other than your polite and friendly self

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Malibu Lagoon State Beach

August 2011

Photo by Heidi

D: We’re at Malibu Lagoon State Beach. 

R: WHAT? NO! GET OUT! STAY AWAY FROM THE WATER! WHATEVER YOU DO, DO NOT GO IN THE WATER!!

D: 

R: THAT HAS THE WORST WATER QUALITY! SUE WENT SWIMMING NEAR THERE AND GOT SICK FOR MONTHS!!! DO YOU SEE A BERN? WHERE THE LAGOON OVERFLOWS TO THE OCEAN?!!

D: Hm…oh, I think we’re standing on it. 

R: !!!!!!!!!

Look at these two fucking cuties. These people are my fave. I hope I will get to see them in Nov!

27 August 2011

LAX, Los Angeles

Sometimes I underestimate old friends

D:	I think he likes me more than I like him.
Kchan:	Story of your life.
D:	How did you know?!

Kev:	My friend says i dnt get close to people...and then i got sad but then i thought of u :)
Me:	:)
Kev:	and just bc alcoh is usually involved doesnt make it less real hahahaha
Me:	Hahaha truth.